Every Day is a New Day

There is a reason why nursing mothers, whether nursing one, two, or three (yes, those awesome mommies exist) need to be realistic and take nursing as a day to day adventure. Some days you really feel like quitting. Some days you've just had enough. Other days you feel like you could sit your butt down and nurse your kid(s) all day long, happy as a clam. I have been lucky and found that I have more of the latter days, which is probably one of the reasons I have had such success with nursing my children. However, those other days creep in every now and again.....

Last Saturday was one such day. I woke up with both DD and DS attached to me. They were sneaky, and I was able to sleep through the first few minutes. But as soon as I felt kids suckling I woke up, and I woke up bitter. I told DD to get off. I had my husband take DS. That was just not the way I wanted to start my day. Other days it might not have bothered me, but for whatever reason, Saturday it bothered me.

I was finished nursing DD! I couldn't fathom another nursing session with my 28 month old again. I was working out the logistics of weaning her in my mind as I lay in bed that morning. When she came to me on the couch and asked for "booby on da couch" I turned her down. The thought of nursing her had me wanting to crawl out of my skin. I didn't even feel guilty about it. I managed to keep her occupied until we got out of the house for our family outing. She eventually stopped asking throughout the day. I forgot about my bitter morning wake up call and new found desire to wean my toddler. I got over it.

By the evening when we got home DD asked to nurse. I realized that she had gone all day without it. Then I felt bad. I really don't want to wean her. I happily nursed her, and she got her "booby on the couch."

It is key to remember: everyday is a new day when it comes to breastfeeding. Never make assumptions about what you are or are not going to do. Just go with it and allow yourself to have whatever feelings you are having. It all works itself out in the end.